Wednesday AM...

I woke up Monday AM & had praise & rejoicing in my heart. Since then, I have been thanking God for what He is doing & for repairing & restoring my marriage. I am thanking Him for doing all the things I have asked for... speak as if it were done! I have to continue to praise Him no matter what is said or done. I am praying for deliverance & healing for both Scott & Katie. They do need God & need to be delivered from the strongholds binding them. I am fasting this week... let's just continue to thank God for working! Love to all... email me back at gettingirl@aol.com

The Email...

Remember that about him telling me he wrote Katie a 2-page email chewing her out?!... Well, here is the email of him KISSING up to her!!! (excuse the typos) KATY,
I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO GIVE YOU SPACE, I AM TRYING TO RESPECT YOUR NEW FOUND INFATCUATION. WHEN I ASK YOU TO DO SOMETHING I EXPECT YOU TO DO IT. I THINK I HAVE GIVEN YOU PRETTY MUCK EVERYTHING YOU HAVE EVER ASK FOR. IS IT TO MUCH TO ASK FOR YOU TO HELP ME OUT AROUND HERE? I DON'T ASK YOU TO DO THINGS AS PUNISHMENT, I NEED YOU TO DO THE THINGS AROUND HERE I DON'T HAVE TIME TO DO. I DON'T YELL AND SCREAM AT YOU FOR NOT DOING WHAT I ASK OF YOU. I NEED YOU HELP; OK? I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING IN THE WORLD. PLEASE STOP LETTING YOUR ROOM LOOK LIKE NIGGERS HAVE MOVED IN. I WANT YOU TO BE HAPPY, AND HAVE LOTS OF FREE TIME, BUT YOU STILL HAVE RESPONSABILITY. I DON'T EXPECT YOU TO GO FIND A JOB, YOU CAN LIVE WITH ME FOREVER AND I WILL ALWAYS SUPPORT YOU, YOU KNOW THAT. JUST PLEASE HELP ME OUT WHEN I ASK YOU TO DO THINGS. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL OF MY HEART. I'm not sure what he was trying to accomplish b/c I really don't think anything has changed!

Monday AM...

We were supposed to get up at 2:00 this AM to get Scott off. I pushed snooze when the alarm went off & didn't wake up again until 3:15. Katie had just woken him up when I rushed down there & tried to tell me - we've BEEN up for a while. I wanted to say WHATEVER!!! Anyway, he wasn't too happy with me but wasn't rude like normal. Later, he called to wake me up & then he called back in about 30 minutes to make sure I got up. Let's just pray the heart grows fonder.

Sunday Eve...

I went to church this AM & then took the van load to Goodwill. It felt SO good to take all of that "stuff". Funny b/c our Pastor preached about "stuff" this AM in our lives that we need to unload & get rid of in our lives. I'm just going to keep eyes pointed on the Lord & keep on keeping on. God will prevail ~ He is bigger & stronger than these spirits I am battling. If you didn't get my email about the Jezebel Spirit & want to read about it ~ email me & let me know. Please pray with me by binding the spirit in the name of Jesus and loosing peace, holiness, truth, and purity (always loose the opposite - positives). I came home & cooked a nice lunch. I had put a whole BARBQ chicken in the crockpot to cook this AM. I made baked potatoes & salad to go with it. It was really good & everyone has taken or is taking a nap now. I'm not going to church this PM b/c I need to rest after yesterday & we have to get up before the chicks in the AM to see Scott off. He is leaving to go to Eagle Pass for the week - won't be home until Friday evening. Like I mentioned... I'm going to fast this week until 5 PM everyday. I might have to have a piece of cheese, nuts or an apple during the day but I'm going to do my best each day. I know I can do it for my marriage!

Saturday Night...

Wow ~ I'm still going to catch up on what is going on... after all - you need to know about last weekend! Last night was rough!!! It's ALL about Katie & she's got that Jezebel Spirit & manipulates her dad & tries to get him to think that I mistreat her NONSTOP! Let's have a pity-party for her. Anyway - he wanted me to go in there & kiss her butt to make up to her b/c she got upset - b/c I'm SO mean to her. Today they went to mow the new church property. Now remember - when you do a work for God, He will do a work for you! These past few days have been powerful (even though Thursday I was eaten up with the Spirit of Heaviness. After they left to go mow - I left to pick up our boxes of food from the church down the road & then to get my prayer partner. She came over & spent most of the day with me. We cleaned, prayed (& fasted) and annointed the house with oil. There is the Spirit of Jezebel (I sent out an email with info on it) very stong, the Spirits of Perversion and Confusion and the Spirit of Fear (this is on me due to not knowing what is going to happen next). At this time, we did not feel any incest with the Spirit of Perversion. We also packed up several more boxes & 1/2 unloaded the "craft/storage" room to go to Goodwill. My van is full (they never noticed) of boxes that I'm going to take after church. I'm so excited that we cleaned out this room as much as we did. It's so exciting!!! I've been told that it's more of the cleansing process. Guess I need to go so I can get ready for bed - need to get up early to go to church & receive another blessing! God is working ~ let's all bind together & believe. My Pastor told me Thursday to pray focused prayer & ask God for answers. I'm doing what I'm supposed to do & I'm a faithful wife & deserve answers about the outcome. My prayer partner & I are going to fast this next week until 5:00 everyday. If you can, please join us in fasting for my marriage and our children & family. OK - think I need to get going... email me back at gettingirl@aol.com

Thursday Afternoon...

I opened Bible.com to do a search on Pride (another spirit that needs to be bound in order for Scott to release some of the issues & realize we have a GOOD marriage!). The passage of the day is Matthew 16:19 ~ And I will give unto thee the keys of the kingdom of heaven: and whatsoever thou shalt bind on earth shall be bound in heaven: and whatsoever thou shalt loose on earth shall be loosed in heaven. This so SO awesome! I just got done telling my mom that I needed to keep binding spirits and loosing GOOD things!

Thursday AM...

Yesterday evening was great! He got home late again... has been working in El Campo/Rosenberg past couple of days & is back there again today to finish up. I'm sure he will be home at a decent hour tonight since it is Thursday & they will probably go out for there daddy/daughter night ~ gag! I think we should all go to dinner as a FAMILY!!! She hasn't been sleeping with him @ night - not sure if it's b/c its warm & there is no a/c in his room or if it's b/c she's been on her period (no matter what - it's still sick!). I cooked dinner before he got home & we ate & watched a little tv. Then we went to our rooms... he's fighting not being more emotional towards me! He tells me goodnight & tries to fight to keep from showing me more affection. He's being more civil towards me - good since Sunday was so bad! I really need to write & catch up on some things... maybe tonight. Have a good day!

Wednesday AM...

Sorry I didn't catch up last night. Scott had to work on my computer more last night. He had to replace the router on Sunday eve & my computer still wasn't connecting right so I couldn't stay online. We had a NICE evening... at one point he even admitted Katie is VERY lazy (kinda interesting for him to say that to me - but it's true!). She got caught not feeding the animals outside AGAIN! He jumped on her & then she had to go feed the goat. I made a nice pork roast with veggies ~ it was GOOD! My prayer partner, Gail & I are going to Ladies Conference in Sugar Land March 6th & 7th. Scott got us a room at the Best Western about 9 miles away with his bonus points from traveling for work. We are so excited & feel like God made a way for us to go. We are ready to shout now! Have a Good Day ~ email me at gettingirl@aol.com

Tuesday PM...

I still have to write catch up but haven't been able to b/c our internet has been messed up. They came out to work on it yesterday & hoping I can go home & get on the internet & maybe do a little catch up for you. This AM he was fine & then I called him on the way to work & he ripped me from one side to the other saying I didn't listen to him - he was on a job. I asked him last night when he was working on my computer where he was going today. He said Rosenberg - then onto El Campo... that was it! I told him he didn't tell me... just said where he was going. He went off & told me that I just don't listen to him (think maybe he told Katie but not me). Also, I wonder sometimes if he's trying to act like a jerk in front of his guys at work... I'm really not sure. Then within about an hour & 45 mins, he texted me to call him. We chatted like nothing ever happened. We texted & chatted a couple of times throughout the day... like nothing ever happened this AM. I know when God deals with them - they are miserable & start acting really bad. Other than that... everything else is about the same. Katie is being nice & lazy - opps! Did I say that?!... sorry but the truth hurts! Well I'm still in town so I need to get home to get dinner going but will write more later. Email me back at ~ gettingirl@aol.com

Sunday AM...

Oh my - probably wondering what happened to me since I haven't written since Thursday. Well I will catch it all up when I get home from church later. He went to pick her up from the b/friend's yesterday afternoon & took them to eat at Fuddrucker's. He still doesn't like the boyfriend b/c he thinks he just wants one thing. I told him yesterday that is the way kids now days have a relationship. They went to Walmart on the way home. He had griped to me that he didn't have any money to buy groceries so I would have to get them. However, he had enough money for them to buy a movie & then have the nerve to come home - go in his room & watch it on his laptop. They never asked me if I wanted to watch it or anything. He says it's b/c I always say NO - whatever! I don't - they are just rude! When I told him I felt like chopped liver, he got made. This AM he made a rude comment back to me about it & said I was just playing games & he's done... I don't get that... he's done. Well my God is greater & I will have to keep praying that... if God is for ME, who can be against ME?! Better go - have to finish getting ready for church. Email me back at
gettingirl@aol.com

Happy Valentine's Day...

Happy Valentine's Day to all my Girlfriends! Hope you have a love-filled day... I'm going to try to. I did tell him Happy Valentine's Day... he said it's a female made up holiday to get men in trouble... it's that great?! Well he & Katie got into it last night b/c he told her that all this guy wants is to screw!!! I'm loving it! & now he's going to talk to her b/friend this evening. I think it's great b/c it might drive her away after all. Let's just pray & bind together.

Wednesday Eve...

Wow ~ where do I begin?! Today wasn't the greatest day at work. She did make me sign the write up form & I tell you I WILL NOT tell her anything else going on (I didn't want to in the beginning either but my other coworker told me to). I wrote at the bottom that I was very sorry I had tried to work consistently & worked in other areas that were needed. Very unappreciative that I worked out in the plant cutting fabric samples for all our January updates. My job does not consist of me working out in the production part of the plant. It's ok ~ it's all junk like I said. I did talk to my friend last night & she's working on trying to make a job for me. Just continue to pray for this too. However, when they come to me & ask me to travel & make sales calls again (like now they are trying to make me go to San Antonio) - I'm going to say that I can't use my personal vehicle at this time for business use. She is also throwing a fit about a couple of other workers. One she got mad yesterday b/c the pieces weren't ready for the truck this week. She hasn't taken into consideration that they have 2-new people on the line, they are short handed & have the coordinator (who will tell you that she doesn't know how to do it all) on the line too. *** Anyway, Mom has the flu & is home in bed for the 4th day in a row. *** Dad's 2nd baby horse was born today about an hour & 1/2 before I got there at lunch (I went & got them Sonic & ate lunch with them to take a break.). I will post pics of the babies later... they are adorable!!! Would like to print a poster of one of them (should do as a b/day gift for my Dad). >>>> Next thing that is major to pray about! Katie leaves tomorrow evening to go to her b/friend's for 2-nights. I was hoping Scott & I could spend some quality time together. However, he just told me that he has to leave about 3 AM on Friday & won't be home until late. We were supposed to go to dinner at the steakhouse in town to celebrate Valentine's. Please pray this job is post-poned!!! I think I'm going to fast tomorrow for this. <<<< Email me at: gettingirl@aol.com

Monday Eve...

Ok Girlfriends ~ you will love this! I was so blessed yesterday & now the enemy is trying to take it away by making my coworker come against me. She is hounding me about personal calls all of a sudden! She hit the roof b/c Katie called me this AM & we talked over 15 minutes. I think she's jealous & the enemy is using her to get to me. I'm thinking that she wants to write me up! It's ok ~ it's all just junk & I refuse to accept it & will go on & be strong. All of this stuff ~ them sleeping together, her being rude, him not calling me much ~ it's all junk & can be fixed! I refuse to get upset & accept it - I rebuke it all & cast it out... in the Name of Jesus! Have a good evening & email me back... gettingirl@aol.com Lots of Love!!!

Monday AM...

You know after having a good day on Sunday (I will write about later), it's hard to go in there to wake him up & see him sleeping with her! I go back in there & he's rolled over & has his arm around her ~ ODD, huh?! He was cool with me this AM. I got to thinking about a comment he made to Katie yesterday or day before about my space. I went & looked & he's made himself a myspace account - but it does say he's in a relationship ~ so go figure! I just don't get alot of this... he needs to have forgiveness & learn to move on (actually both of them!). You just don't wake up one morning/one day & not love your wife. He kept saying that it had been coming on for a few years - I just don't believe it! I think he's been trying to convince himself of this! I just believe with all that happened yesterday ~ God is going to do a work!

Sunday PM...

First of all let me say... I came home & they were SO nice to me! It was totally different & so God!!! So I decided I was going to go back to church that evening b/c there was a special speaker. He was awesome & so on most of our church. His sermon was Revival at the Leper's House! He spoke more from God & said that some of you have been praying for some things & your prayers are fixing to be answered. He went on to say that our children are fixing to come back to church & our families too. It was so annointed! He spoke about our church & things that we are going thru there ~ he would have only known these things thru God. Then he said that thru our faith & focus on God with prayer & good works ~ God was fixing to do a work in some of us. He also talked about restoration (can't remember the exact words). I just have to keep believing! Things happen for a reason & I believe that all of this happened for a reason too. He kept saying God is fixing to do a work! (I believe it was confirmation of the AM).

Sunday AM...

You talk about awesome! From the time I got to church early (about 40 mins.), until I received a word from God at the altar - I was VERY anxious feeling! I had that feeling of expectency & when I do ~ something usually happens. I was there with Debra (her husband is a preacher & leader in the church & they're having problems with their boys) & we were praying for our families & children. The Pastor came & laid hands on us & prayed for us but could only pray for us in tongues. Then another minister in our church who isn't there a lot b/c he works out of town - well he came & laid hands on us & prayed for us AND same thing with him. Next thing I knew - he was back & was speaking in my ear. He said... He doesn't normally do this but felt led by the Holy Ghost. He said he didn't know my situation but knew I had really been praying for something. He saw walls crumbling down before my very eyes b/c of my faithfulness. He also said that if I keep my eyes on Jesus ~ principalities & tribulations will fall by the way & God will do a work.... sees things crumbling away. Well I don't know if you remember but in December Scott said he felt like he had hit a brick wall ~ or more like the Great Wall of China! I believe this was a sign that God was going to tear this wall down.

Saturday Night...

Well he fixed my brakes & they work GREAT! I think they've needed it for a long time. Then they were going to take a nap & I went down there to ask him a question & he was messing with a doorknob that he had gotten out of a box. He put locking doorknobs on both of their bedrooms. I was shocked! ~ like what do they have to hide?! I can tell you it was mainly her. She keeps accusing me of going in her room & messing with her stuff. Honestly, I haven't but I have gone in them & prayed over their rooms and for them. Maybe it's getting to them (or their spirits)! Anyway, when he got done - he came to my room & said WHAT?... you could tell he felt guilty. Yes, there is a lock on "our" bedroom door but we both agreed that we didn't want Katie roaming thru our stuff b/c she did when we lived in Red Rock. He says it was ME ~ of coarse!... everything is ME. He's so twisted right now. I don't even want to tell you the rest b/c I don't believe it's of God (let the enemy shut his ears while I tell you this). ~ He preceives to tell me how he doesn't want to be married to me anymore, he can't get past '95, he will never forget, he sold his kid out for me (think he just feels really guilty b/c she's growning up), he will figure out how to get me my settlement money, a judge would award me less in a settlement (he's stupid cuz it's what we agreed on), I'm just all about money lately (he's the one rubbing it in my face that he paid for this or that), he says that he's slept on the couch for the last 3 years (which is wrong - he did now & then) and on & on. I told him that I have asked for forgiveness several times for what I did in the past! He needs to forgive me & other people in his life that have hurt him. Anyway - I was crying so much that I had to calm myself down & decided to go for a drive to the local gas station/store. I went to my prayer partners house & was gone over an hour. We talked & she's right... he's back & forth confused. At one moment he said that I could just have this house & move it - then he would just continue to pay for it & he also said he wouldn't help me get my water & electric hooked up. Then the next minute he tells me NO - he's not giving me this house! He will figure it out & yes, he will help me hook up my utilities - didn't he tell me he would?! I'm like a minute ago you said NO... he's all over the place!!! I really don't think this is what he wants but I'm going to continue to believe in God & that He will move on him to realize what we have & that I have changed!

Saturday Afternoon...

Things are about the same here... she's still really rude (he's letting her act like that) & he's trying to keep his distance... he's eatin' up with conviction & I was told when I was given my word from God (my promise) that he could run but would not be able to get away from God... he would come back. I'm just believing!!! God is the ultimate healer of all! Just like the night I was supposed to read Mark 11 & I messed up & read Mark 10. It talks a lot about "dispute about divorce" and in the end it talks about the miracle of Blind Bartimaeus being healed. It was showing "restoration" & that is what we need in our marriage! God is the only one that can put things back together & these things come with lots of prayer & fasting. Thanks for all your prayers!... thanks to those of you who are fasting too!

Saturday AM...

I was going to go to a Prayer Conference in Houston today b/c I thought they were going to Seguin (Scott's Grandpa's). Only Katie had kept telling me they were going to Seguin - Scott had never said so. I had kept asking him about looking at my brakes & possibly doing a brake job on my van. Well he's doing it today ~ thank God!... so needless to say - I didn't go to the prayer conference or any place else today (esp. since my van is taken apart... lol). People offered to come get me but I said no. I thought that would be rude since he's working on my brakes. I am praying that God would remove the scales from his eyes when it comes to our relationship & let him see that he DOES love me and this is just a thing we are going thru that we can get thru! ~ Then we have Lil' Miss Muffett... she's such a liar! I am continuing to pray for 2 things regarding her: 1) the scales would be lifted from his eyes to see her for the liar she is and 2) that she is SO happy when she goes to see Boyfriend next week that she goes ahead & just wants to STAY THERE!!! She doesn't do anything she's asked to do without being told several times to do it & then if it's something I ask her to do ~ she throws a BIG fit & tells a lie to her dad that I was rude to her... la la la.

Friday...

Well we talked alot during the day. He called me & chatted & chatted with me. They both are so wishy washy that I really do think it's the enemy. They can love me one minute & hate me the next! I had the chance to ask him today what his deal was about last night & going off on me. He said well - your food should have been hot, I drove straight home with it. I told him it was luke warm & I just wanted it hot, which is why we have microwaves. He said you have a microwave (like you are taking it with you when you leave). I told him to quit. I knew he was upset about something last night but didn't know what. He told me that he wrote Katie a 2-page email about her not doing what she is suppossed to do & what she is told to do. He told her that if she didn't do it today - she was going to lose her cell phone & use of computer for the weekend. I'm hoping she's so miserable here that she wants to stay with her boyfriend once she goes over there next week ~ for good! I've been praying for God to remove the scales from his eyes & let him see her lies & let him see her for what she is. Also that he would see that he loves me & wants to be with me!!! I know he does... you can tell he cares about me & is just being a jerk!

Thursday Evening...

Well they went to dinner together AGAIN! I had asked Scott earlier in the day if we were all going... he said that was cool but would have to see what Katie wanted to do. Later in day, he told me for the 2 of us to work it out. When I talked to her in the afternoon, she said can I go to dinner with my daddy alone? I want to spend some time w/him alone. I said ok. Stupid me!!! I should have said - y'all aren't going to be here on Saturday & y'all were gone all weekend. I think we should all go to dinner together. I am going to next time b/c that sucked! She's such a spoiled brat. Plus they brought my food home at almost 10:00. Then he blew up at me b/c I wanted to heat it up. He said it should be hot! ~ we came straight home as soon as we got it. I said something about it not being hot. He went off on me & called me the B-word & started yelling that he would just feed it to the dogs now if I didn't change my attitude & I would be out the door sooner than I knew what hit me! He kept telling me to change my attitude or I would be out. He was upset about something but I wasn't sure what.

The food was good & kinda hit the spot! I was pretty hungry by the time they got back with it. However, it was great to be alone. It gave me time to read the Bible & pray... I read Psalms 112 & looked up Isaiah 42:3 (another good one).

Thursday AM... (revised)

Errrr... I hate mornings! He's always in a bad mood & I feel like he's always rude to me. He tells me to get the ____ out of his room - like he's possessive or has something to hide!!! Katie was in there when I went to wake him up but I didn't feel like she slept with him. He started crap with me before he left & made some rude comment to me. When I try to tell him that it's putting me down - he says that he's just talking crap & doesn't mean anything by it. He says oh my gosh!... this is why I want you to move out... I'm sick of your crap... I just won't talk to you. Mainly I think he said alot of crap b/c he was joking with me & I took it all wrong. Plus he was at work & didn't have time to be on the phone when we were discussing it. But when I went to start texting him off the computer... he screwed up!!! He texted me back what he was trying to text Katie... check this out... "Parker" [6:56 A.M.]: I TALKED TO HIM A FEW MINS"Parker" [7:01 A.M.]: PLZ DONT STAND ME UP AGAIN TONITE"Parker" [7:02 A.M.]: YOU GOT A "o (zero)" ON YOUR TEST LAST NITE ... I know who he talked to a few mins... it was the b/friend. She was supposed to wash his sheets & clean both of their rooms & vacuum their rooms, but she didn't do any of it ... so this is how she stood him up. Anyway ~ Scott & I just talked & I just asked him not to be rude --- that was all I was asking him. He said OK! Well I gotta got to work so will write more later... Later on my way to work, he realized he texted me back instead of her. He had to explain what all the weird text's were about. It's ok - I really don't care. If you read them - they are both immature & need to grow up.

Wednesday Evening... (revised)

Katie & I hung out in the evening & then went to Walmart to try to get her contacts. The place was closed early so we got the things we needed at Walmart. Then I got us take out Chinese Food & we came home & hung out & ate. It was 180 degrees from what it's been between us. Go Figure, huh?!... Scott got home late so we just talked while he was getting ready to take a shower. It was small talk & not much was said ~ of coarse, we never talk about us. He comes home tired every night & then Katie keeps him up talking every night. I can't wait to wake up & walk down there one night to see what's going on. He gripes at me that he's tired but really should be griping at her AND putting his foot down - but he doesn't.

Wednesday Afternoon... (revised)

TODAY was a bad day! Somehow we were talking about Katie & he said we have alot to fix. He also said we have alot of bad blood & years of repair that need to be made. He said that she told him recently what happened that night 13 years ago, almost exactly like it happened. (I feel like someone helped this story or at least refreshed her memory & I think it was his mother or sister.) He said that he keeps telling her that someday she might need me, like if he's out of town, etc. She told him that she wouldn't call me for a doggone thing & would wait for him to come back in town. He just keeps talking about Katie & I repairing things & getting back on track. He asked me to take her to pick up her contacts on Thursday evening. Now after he tells me all this ~ why would I want to? and why does he want us to have such a good relationship? ~ oh yeah, b/c I was the best mom she's ever had.

Then, he goes on that he's getting divorced & he doesn't need this affecting her anymore than what it is (everything that is affecting her is b/c of him & him dragging her in the middle of it or letting her put her 3 cents worth in). HELLO!!! ~ does he care about me??!! Of coarse all this conversation is going on at work & I'm crying. He tries to tell me that he can't believe I don't know that he's serious about a divorce & he knew that I was thinking that things were going to be fixed & we were going to stay together. He said that he's done & he's been done for about 2 years!!! I told him that wasn't true that we have had some good times over the last 2 years. He said that he was trying really hard to make it work. I said there have been times that I tried really hard too and that is what a marriage is... you have to work at it & sometimes harder than others. I had to leave work for about an hour & a half to calm down... I was too upset to stay there. I went to pick up his laptop & then went to hide at my friend's tax/bookkeeing office while I talked to my prayer partner. No one knew where I was but her & my friend. I was able to calm down enough to go back to work & finish the day. Just a few minutes after I got back to work - the lady at the church down the road where we buy our bulk food each month called me. I had asked her to pray for our family when I went to get our food 2-Saturdays ago. She said she would & then she also said that she would call me in a couple of days to check on me. Well she didn't call me for a week & a half. She said that she had been thinking about me all day since early in the morning. She asked how my day was & I said not good at all - as a matter of fact it's been bad. She said now I know why I can't get you out of my mind. She asked if she could pray for me right now - I said sure! It was powerful & of coarse it was very strong & meaningful. I felt all this was signs from God to keep on keeping on! God is working & this is why they are SO miserable... esp. Scott w-me.

Wednesday AM...

He didn't call me on the way home last night. Instead he called his sister & talked to her (this makes me wonder if she is going to help him with the refinance since Katie has been getting the mail too). I really wanted to call him but left it up to God for him to call me. We just hung out & didn't do much. He had to pay bills on my computer b/c his is in the shop. He got home late so it was a short evening. I crashed b/c I was tired from getting up at 4 & then only lying back down for about 45 minutes to an hour.

When I hugged him bye this AM & told him I loved him, he said he didn't need all that hugging & kissing. I just joke & said be quiet. He wasn't very receptive towards me but did stop for me to hug him. Some days I'm not sure at all - others I'm strong about us.

Katie didn't sleep with him last night but did the night before. I read his text messages to her yesterday that were from Monday night. He asked her if she was going to sleep with him & if so, she needed to hurry up b/c he was waiting on her. She said no - not tonight. He said why not, we talked about it all day & you said yes (sick huh?!). She replied ok - whatever (sounds like she might be tired of it). Let's just pray that she will continue to want to sleep in her own room. Also, she goes to stay with her boyfriend a couple of nights next week. Let's pray that since she is so miserable here - she will want to stay at Curtis' (the boyfriend) permanently.

I know God can move in mysterious ways & I think this would help her be more active. She truly does nothing here - except sleep, talk on the phone, eat, sleep, talk on the phone, eat, sleep, phone, eat, sleep - you get the picture?! She has NO life & when I'm here - she's always in her room & sleeping. Scott says that she stays in her room so she won't have to deal with me b/c I'm rude to her.

I just have to continue to pray...
In the name of Jesus, I come against every evil spirit & every demon that would come against me & my family. I am your child Lord covered in your blood that has your authority to back up the things that I need. Lord, right now I'm asking you to move and move now. In the name of Jesus, division get out, deceit get out, oppression, depression, confusion, perversion, lust, strife - flee!, in the name of Jesus. Let liberty flow, peace, love, joy, a happy marriage, gladness & comfort. We claim this in your name b/c your word is truth and the truth cannot lie. Jesus we leave it up to you. Take control now, right now - in the name of Jesus. (thank Tammy for the prayer).

Tuesday Afternoon...

Well I had to take the laptop to the shop this AM... I don't know how much it's going to cost but the guy is going to try to saurter the connection back together & hopefully it will work & not be a total loss. I haven't heard anything about it yet & Scott is chomping at the bit to find out about it.

He called me on the way to work this AM to remind me to take his computer to the guy. He said & I'm going to pay you for taking it so you don't have to feel like you are doing it for free! I said what - don't worry about it. He said NO - I don't want you to think you are having to do things for me... I said, don't you do things for me?! He said - quite often (ok - I'm thinking of them --- I'm still thinking... oh yeah, he provides a nice home for me & works hard. Yes, that does mean alot to me!).

Discouragement & Division...

I tell you the enemy keeps raising his head...

I caught Katie in a lie yesterday but when I said something, it backfired on me. He said he doesn't care what I say - I'm just starting crap & that's all I've ever done around there. Of coarse she hasn't really stopped being rude to me & yells at me & raises her voice at me just like he does... like I said, her days will be short on this earth if she doesn't learn respect. I pray his eyes will be opened to her & soon!

When I told him bye & that I love him this AM, he said I don't know why you think you do. I said I do with all my heart. He said I hope I never, ever have to hear another woman say that again for the rest of my life. He said when you are gone, I'm done!

When he called to wake me up b/c he left really early, he started crap with me then. He had told me last night & this morning that I'm a hypercondriac b/c something always hurts on me. He said I'm a rude, loud mouth -----. He said that for the past 14 years I have been very rude. I told him to stop putting me down & that I was not being rude. He said yeah - not at the moment but if he had a tape recorder for the past 14 years - he could prove that I was rude. He said that I always talk over everyone & know more than everybody (I know this is the opinion of his family, esp. the Parker's - which his father is this way & his grandmother WAS worse!). Now he needs to look in the mirror b/c I can think of a time that he offended one of my friends for being a know it all & saying that he knew he was a know it all that day. He is so self-centered that he will go on & on at times about himself.

I am standing on my promise & know that it will truly take a miracle from God for this to be repaired! I know this is a healing process & God is the ultimate healer. I have to focus on the positives & not the negatives. My mom gave me Psa . 89:34... God honors His Covenant and a Covenant is a Promise! Also ready verses 40-43... they are great & say that God will fight our battles.

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Trying to Make Peace...

Let Peace Rule ~
"And let the peace (soul harmony which comes) from the Christ rule(act as umpire continually) in your hearts--deciding and settling with finality all questions that arise in your minds.... And be thankful--appreciative, giving praise to God always."(Colossians 3:15)

This is what I've been trying to do; however, the enemy keeps trying to raise his head. Last night on their way home, Katie called me & was so rude & yelling at me. I'm So tired of him letting her talk to me that way. I should just do the same thing she does - not answer her calls. I'm afraid her days will be short on this earth b/c she has NO respect for her parents, much less authority. I pray that she would return to God & straighten up b/c she is not being the sweet Katie we all know she can be.

Sunday Evening...

Church was awesome this AM! The pastor preached about discouragement holding you back/down & getting in the way of your relationship with God. Then when I went to the alter, one of the female leaders walked up to me & said Shawn, I have a scripture for you. Then she asked - do you have a promise? When I said yes, she said - are you standing on it? I grinned when I said yes b/c I wanted to tell her yes I am - literally! Read II Peter 1: 3-5... whereby are given unto us exceeding great and precious promises... awesome, huh?!

I went to my parent's after church & enjoyed some great food! My dad made the best meal... & those potatoes were amazing! It was fun & I hate to have to leave but I needed to get home to do a couple of things & take a nap. I was really tired from hanging out with friends late, etc... lol.

Scott & Katie are on their way home now. I pray that attitudes don't get in the way of us enjoying each other's company. He has already called me on the way home & was fine with me. One thing I would like prayer about is him treating me one way when Katie isn't around & another when she is around ~ I have noticed this lately. I'm not giving up & I'm going to continue to fight with God on my side!

Saturday Evening...

I'm home alone for about 24-hours! Scott & Katie are gone to East Texas... of coarse I had to stay home. It's ok - it's time to reflect on me & enjoy time alone. I plan to spend time with my friends this evening at a BBQ, go to church in the AM & then lunch @ my Mom & Dad's. I am going to come home & CLEAN & wash clothes =)

Actually I already started cleaning this AM. Katie & I worked on the house some together. She griped alot but it's ok - we did it together. I plan to do alot more while they are gone - but don't know how much I will get done... I have made my own plans... lol.

Scott was very warm & receptive towards me telling him bye when they were leaving. He even turned his head to let me kiss him on the lips! I'm telling you - God is working... it's just baby steps & it's one step at a time. Let's just continue to pray & bind together!

Amazing Phone Call...

My Dad called me Thursday AM with a word from God...

"Wide is the gate, you've walked the narrow way" - quit worrying about it! There is a new life & a new beginning for me. Let everything settle itself and don't worry about it.

In the end, my dad said that God gave him this word for me this AM. There was no small talk or joking in our phone call & it was very strong. You could tell it was from God & I was shaking & tears were rolling down my face when he got done.

2 things extra to pray about - both Scott & Katie have wounded spirits & afflictions. They need to be healed & can be thru prayer & applying the blood. They both have broken hearts & broken spirits.

The other thing is that I feel they are battling a perverse spirit. I have to bind the spirit of heaviness and loose the spirit of comfort & oil. They need a Comforter. John 15:26 and Rom 1:4.

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Thursday Night...

Katie & I went to Chili's (her pick) & had a nice dinner. Of coarse the main subject was her boyfriend, next was subject was the weather - very windy! We mostly chit-chatted but all in all, we had a good time. I look forward to us hanging out again.

Scott & I hung out in the evening & watched tv (I feel asleep while he was watching his movie). We had a good evening but no breakthrough - yet! He is being more receptive towards me & making sure to hug me goodnight, hug me bye & let me tell him I love him. I will keep on keeping on! God will do a work & will open Scott's eyes to our marriage.