"Need You Now"...

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor
Reachin’ for the phone ‘cause I can’t fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time
It’s a quarter after one I’m all alone And I need you now
Said I wouldn’t call But I’ve lost all control And I need you now
And I don’t know how I can do without
I just need you now
Another shot of whiskey,
can’t stop looking at the door Wishing you’d come sweeping in the way you did before And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time
It’s a quarter after one I’m a little drunk And I need you now
Said I wouldn’t call But I’ve lost all control And I need you now
And I don’t know how I can do without
I just need you now
Yes I’d rather hurt than feel nothing at all
It’s a quarter after one I’m all alone And I need you now
And I said I wouldn’t call, But I’m a little drunk And I need you now
And I don’t know how I can do without I just MORE?

Says Louisiana but could be Bastrop, TX

Side Show

Check Your Eye...

It amazes me at times how people are so worried about the spec in my eye when they have a big boulder hanging out of their own eye! Do you think as humans we pass judgement on each other too much?! Do you think that we are too worried about each other's business & not our own?! I absolutely hate when I'm trying to have a good time with my friends & someone is worrying about what I'm doing! I really want to say ~ check your own household & make sure all your peeps are in order before bugging me. Ok, nuff said... sorry, just venting.

And the Rain...

...came down, down, down! Today it rained buckets & buckets here. The creek was flowing in the back at the music company. It hasn't flowed like that in months! It was really neat to watch the ducks swim & have a good time in the water. It was NO fun trying to change the catboxes in the rain either. I just dumped the old litter in the trash can outside the door. Every time I would try to go outside it was raining again!

Better Off...

...a Memory, than My Man! Steve & I parted ways but we have spoken a couple of times in the past week. He has too many issues than I need in my life at this time. I was tired of the drama coming from all directions! All of what was going on was actually getting to be embarrassing, but I can't control what anyone else does. I am sad & will miss him & especially Charlie, but I know God has great things in store for me.

One of my favorite songs out right now goes something like ~
Be strong in the Lord, never give up hope.
You're going to do great things, I already know.
God has His hand on you, don't live your life in fear.

God has already blessed me SO much! He gave me a new car (well it's new to me!) & has kept me working to pay for it. Even though my hours keep getting changed around at my 2 jobs, they are both adapting to my schedule & working with me. I am still working 2 part time jobs: at the music publishing company & at the furniture plant (Swiftex). I love both of my jobs & wish I was at both of them more. If you are in the market for new upholstered furniture, check us out at www.swiftexfurniture.com.

It's the Big Day...

... but it's not my big day! I'm so happy that it's someone else's big day & that Scott will be someone else's problem & not mine. He married the woman that he started messing around with before I moved out. He has been more of a father to her kids than he was to his own daughter. He told this woman that he waited all his life to be with someone like her. I think it's funny because he told me the same thing. I feel numb but really, I'm relieved it's not me!

New Car...

I got the new car! I went home & did my research. The car was listed for $13k so I was going to ask for that price the next day. While I was getting ready to leave, a lady called me from GMAC finance company. Shortly there after, my salesman called me & said he thought they were going to be able to do it with NO problem. I said ok - I will be there in a little bit but had to run some errands first. I think he was more excited than me.

Early in the AM, I received a strange text that someone wanted me to call them ASAP. This person knew I needed another car & did not have any funds to make a good down payment. When I made the call, they said - this is between me, you & the Lord but I received some $'s in the mail & want you to have them for your car. I explained that I would know about the car either today or Monday that I went to look at. They told me that they were going to pray for the payment to be less than $300 a month.

When I got to the dealership, I had to wait & wait because my salesman was with someone else. I was able to get the keys & take it for another spin to double check how I felt driving it. I also stopped in a parking lot to look it up & down & inside & out ~ checking out every cubby hole. Us girls gotta know where to put our stuff! When the salesman was able to talk to me, he said let me get you in with our finance guy. I was like well - I wanted to talk about price. He just kept saying, we will work it out... cuz he already knew the great news!

I sat down & the finance guy was grinning SO big that I thought huh, do they think I'm going to pay $17k for this car. But the deal was, he had tried a couple of places to get financing & GMAC only wanted to give me a $10k loan & others wanted a big down payment too. He just kept on & found a credit union in Austin but it was still not enough of a loan. They decided due to my situation that they weren't going to ask me to try to find money I didn't have for a down payment, they were just going to sell me a car. The car price was $11K & they paid $25 for me to join this credit union AND my payments are under $300 (even if just a few dollars). This was everything this person that gave me the down payment $'s prayed for me that day! God really blessed me with this whole situation!!!

Car Search...

I kept debating on where to go find a car. I looked at Harbison Auto Sales but all their cars were either 2001 or 2002 with lots of miles that I was interested in. I then looked online at San Marcos Toyota & to this day, the salesman I called there has still not returned my call! Everyone kept telling me to stop by Benny Boyd Dodge on my way home from work. Well I went by after running my normal Friday errands & immediately met the nicest salesman. He was concerned about me & finding me the right car. I immediately fell in love with the Dodge Caliber. They had 4 on their used car lot. There was one '09, 2 - '08's & one '07. He told me straight up that I better try to get the '07 since it would be less money AND it only had 20,000 miles on it. I wasn't too happy when he told me it was $17k but I went on to test drive it & fell in love because it was so comfortable. I filled out all the credit information & have faith & go home & say a prayer & he would call me tomorrow about mid-morning. I am excited but was still planning to go to San Marcos tomorrow.

Vehicle is Totaled...

I got word today from the insurance that my van was totaled. It had over $10,000 worth of damage to it. I have to find a new car now. I'm praying for God's blessings on my search. I did have full coverage on my van so that will help pay it off. I also had GAP insurance so that will pay the balance of what is owed. I'm praying to find something with little or NO down payment, since I will have NO insurance $'s towards a new one & with all the repairs to my vehicle lately - I have no extra funds. Also, I need a car with a much lower monthly payment than the van. It was killing me each month to make the payment!

The Wreck

This evening I had a wreck on the way home from work. I rear-ended a man that slammed on the brakes as soon as the light turned yellow. Did I mention we were on Hwy 71 where the speed limit is 65!!!! The officer said he made an unsafe stop but it was still my fault. Thankfully, I was not cited for the accident. My airbags exploded & I had burns all over my arms & wrists. I was pretty shook up but was able to move my vehicle off the highway. I was slammed back in the seat pretty hard so I have aches & bruises all over but actually feel thankful. I do believe my van is totaled. I called home to get my parents to come but as soon as my dad found out I was alive & it was my fault, he hung up on me. It really upset my mom because she wanted to come. I was very blessed that my boss drove by & stopped to help me! He took me to try to get a rental car & then took me home since there were no cars available.