Tuesday, 6/24...

I can't believe this month has almost totally gone by & I'm still living here. Tomorrow will be a really rough day for me... think I might have to shed alot of tears! I really thought I had married the love of my life. I never knew that he would flip so badly.

My mom is doing ok. She still has the colitis. She goes to see her new Dr. tomorrow in Bastrop. He's an internal medicine doctor & an oncologist. He works very closely with the doctor that is doing her radiation. He is very excited about seeing my mom tomorrow - I believe they feel there is lots of hope for her (of coarse we know there is b/c we know the healer of all).

Scott is out of town for the night - yipee! It's actually great b/c I came home & have had some peace to just do whatever. I changed catboxes, watched HGTV, surfed, hung out with my kitties & Benji & then he called! He wanted to know if I knew anything knew on "our houses". He's so out there! I know God is dealing with him but I'm ready for God to smack him upside the head & now.

Monday, 6/23...

My mom is doing better & is going home today. It was a rough 3-weeks at times but we made it thru "Camp Brack".

I'm skipping work ~ again to go to Austin & take care of everything. I guess she will make the appointment this afternoon. Now the question is ~ how will she get there & back home?! I guess if they aren't going to take her in the ambulance - I can figure it out on my own. For some reason, I always do & get it done some how.

Now that my mom is going home - I will be at my house more. Please pray that I don't have problems with Scott. He acts like he cares so much about my mom & I when he sees me - I just don't get it at all. He is really NOT in the right frame of mind - no matter what he says & what he thinks. He has been acting like he's in his 20's again.

Quick update on my house - now I'm going with a totally different company b/c the other company couldn't get their act together & can't keep their story straight on the price of the house since they were giving me a couple of discounts. I like it alot better & like the layout of the kitchen & Master Bath a lot better too! It's really pretty.

Wednesday, 6/4...

I spoke to the Manager of the home place last night. He said that they should be calling me really soon to schedule the closing. I'm praying all goes well.

Please pray for my Mom today. She is going to the chiropractor today & has been in severe pain and barely able to walk at all. We need to believe God is going to heal her & remove the pain from her body.

I'm also praying that God would shut down this other with Scott. 1 - it's wrong but most of all I need him to have right thinking to help me move & get situated. You can tell he truly isn't happy. He has so much frustration built up that it's sad. I know he has convinced himself that it is all b/c of me but we all know that w/out God - you are NOT going to be happy in your life. Running from God just makes you more miserable & more upset in life!

Please help me touch the throne of grace for these things today!

I will NOT be Moved...

I have been the wayward child
I have acted out
I have questioned Sovereignty
And had my share of doubt
And though sometimes my prayers feel like
They're bouncing off the sky
The hand I hold won't let me go
And is the reason why...

Chorus:
I will stumble
I will fall down
But I will not be moved
I will make mistakes
I will face heartache
But I will not be moved
On Christ the Solid Rock I stand
All other ground is sinking sand
I will not be moved

Bitterness has plagued my heart
Many times before
My life has been like broken glass
And I have kept the score
Of all my shattered dreams and though it seemed
That I was far too gone
My brokenness helped me to see
It's grace I'm standing on

Chorus:
I will stumble
I will fall down
But I will not be moved
I will make mistakes
I will face heartache
But I will not be moved
On Christ the Solid Rock I stand
All other ground is sinking sand
I will not be moved

And the chaos in my life
Has been a badge I've worn
Though I have been torn
I will not be moved

Chorus:
I will stumble
I will fall down
But I will not be moved
I will make mistakes
I will face heartache
But I will not be moved
On Christ the Solid Rock I stand
All other ground is sinking sand
I will not be moved

Tuesday, 6/3...

OK - I'm starting to get frustrated! I'm not hearing anything back & I've left messages for both people. I really think I should hear something today.

Things were VERY quiet (as he puts it) last night. He helped me get a few boxes & things taken care of but really not much. He's really not wanting to help do much. I did pack quiet a few boxes out of the storage room & my closet last night. He chatted with her on the phone a few times. It's sickening to even have to put up with all of it! I guess she was calling him to "check" on him since I'm such a violent person... yeah, right!

Well I have to get to work so I better go. Have a blessed day! Be thankful & rejoice in the Lord today.

Monday, 6/2...

I still haven't heard anything else on my house. I left messages for 2-people at the home place today & never heard anything back. It really makes me mad that people can't return calls to you.

This weekend (well Saturday) I let a little too much flesh rise up & didn't stay in the spirit. It was the 2nd time this week but I think I got it all out of my system.