Monday Update...

My Mom gave me this passage tonight... Mark 10:29-30.

29 “Yes,” Jesus replied, “and I assure you that everyone who has given up house or brothers or sisters or mother or father or children or property, for my sake and for the Good News, 30 will receive now in return a hundred times as many houses, brothers, sisters, mothers, children, and property—along with persecution. And in the world to come that person will have eternal life.

Sunday PM...

I was feeling SO down this AM b/c I had not heard from him. It was the enemy trying to rob me of my faith. My friend said ~ just wait to see what God has for you from the pulpit today (she was feeling something good was coming). It was really hard for me not to feel sad & down (mind was running away).

Church was SO awesome this AM! Mike Tuminello came & preached for us. He talked about 4 Places we lose our faith:
#1 - the MIND - the enemy wants to change our mind (what did I just tell you?!). Allow the Lord to transform you. Keep good thoughts in your mind - negativity is a destroyer of the mind.

#2 - the MOUTH - Read Matthew 12. Your tongue can get you in trouble (God has shown me this & has shut my mouth so I don't bark back). Be positive - pray as though it's already done, as if it were. Adjust your words to be positive, don't let the devil convince you it can't be done.

#3 - your HANDS - once made up mind & speaking, reach for & do the things you believe. Hold onto good things & let bad (bitterness, pain) things go.

#4 - your FEET - the steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord. Be planted like a tree! Learn how to walk with the Lord. Be here - hell or highwater! Don't be looking for a way out, walk in God.

I think that sermon was preached for me - even the Pastor's wife told me so. I feel better but it's hard at times not to let your mind & feelings wander.

As soon as they left his parent's, he called me to tell me & also let me know they were on the way home. I just hung up with him the second time =) we were hanging up & I said - I love you & miss you, I'll be glad when y'all are home. He was taken aback at first & then said uh-ok. He had stopped at a gas station to go to the bathroom.

Before they even got home, I talked to him... the attitude (arrogance) was back & of coarse attitudes when they got home. They didn't even eat dinner - which led me to believe they had eaten when he told me they would be home for dinner. She slept with him - first night back, gotta spend extra time with him!

Saturday night...

Well he barely texted me yesterday & I called him when I went to pick up our food & chatted for a couple of minutes. I tried to call him on the way home & he wouldn't answer (you know he has to keep up the front in front of his family - probably doesn't want to listen to it about me). You know I just thought - maybe he doesn't want to talk in front of them b/c they are talking bad about me & he doesn't want to hear it. I really think he's gotten in over his head & the spirit of pride will come down!

My friend came over & we prayed, chatted & baked cookies. We prayed some more & God just kept telling us that it's going to be alright, keep on keeping on. Right now, I believe it's a test of faith & I have to keep up the fight to be able to win.

I was still down b/c he hadn't called me but alot of the feeling is flesh. I need to let this go & seek after the spirit. The enemy will use your mind to destroy your faith!

Saturday AM...

He's already texted me this AM to make sure I got up & to work (of coarse he didn't text me 'til 11:00 & I had to be there at 9:00). I'm working for the lady my mom worked for last year at Jackson Hewitt. She has opened her own tax & bookkeeping place in town. Since my hours were cut back at work on 3/11, I've been going in there in the AM before work & helping on Saturdays (since I'm home alone anyway). It may not pay as much as my regular job (not sure of the amount yet), but it's better than I was getting paid ($0). I really need the $'s right now since the first week my hours were cut I got 30 hours & the second week I got 24 hours (sad for a full-time job!).

Well I had to go get our monthly food box so I ran home real quick... I'm going back to Go Figure! (the tax/bookkeeping place). We have lots of tax & busy work to do. We are on the home stretch now & have lots of people coming in with complicated returns that need to be done. =)

Please put in a prayer request for me at church on Sunday. Since Katie is coming home, I will be fighting spirits again! My prayer partner is supposed to be coming over later to pray with me & hang out. I annointed the doors last night to the bedrooms, front door & in their bathroom. God is moving on Scott but he needs to open his eyes to God!

Friday Nite...

Whew ~ this was a day! I wish I wouldn't have typed all that this AM but it's what happened & that's it. After I thought about it, I would have been a grouch at 4 AM too if I had to get up & go to work (plus know I was going to have a hard day @ work).

I feel really, really bad now & have to confess that I was wrong about who texted him this AM at 5 AM. It was his boss - Jesse. He was texting to say that his brother died. It was really sad & now I feel so bad. He says he told me this AM & said that I said oh how sad. It wasn't me that said that - it was his text buddy!

I read his texts a little this evening. There wasn't anything about me (thank goodness) but I did read one disturbing statement that I'm not sure how it came about (didn't get to read it all - he got out of shower before I finished). It's ok - guess who he comes home to every night?! ~ Me. He might say he wants this & that but he has done nothing to get the ball rolling.

When he left tonight, he hugged & hugged me, turned his head & gave me small pecks on the lips. He seemed cool about having to tell me bye. He left really late so I'm worried about him getting tired since he has been up so long. I wish he would have stayed & left in the AM (especially since he got up so early & it's raining mildly). He wanted to get there so he could sleep in. I hope they will let him sleep in & not try to get him up for any reason.

Friday AM...

This has been an awful morning! He has chewed my tail off, thrown it on the floor & stomped on it. Yes, that was "her" calling him yesterday AM at 6:45. I read a little of their texts yesterday & they were just talking about his work... didn't get to read all of them or what she wrote back to him. I went & looked at his phone later after he was in bed & he had erased all his texts... interesting b/c when he went to take a shower, he shut the door to the bathroom & had his phone & was texting someone. He knows he isn't doing right!

This AM he was awful when I went to wake him up (I had slept with him about 4-5 hours... lol). He never got up & I was running around doing things & getting his stuff together. He accused me of not listening to him when he wanted me to bring his breakfast to him in bed. He says that he has eaten breakfast in bed everyday but yesterday & today. Well that was a lie from the pits of hell! He has eaten breakfast in bed 2x's in the past 2 weeks. He was SO rude to me & cussing & yelling this AM. He didn't hug me bye (says I hang on him to make him later in the AM's - which I don't). He just went out the door & slammed it.

He called me within about 10 mins. He probably had to either text or call "her" b/c she was texting him at 5ish this AM. I should have said - who are you texting at 5:00 in the morning?! But I just felt like that would start more & the Holy Ghost had already told me who it was. I just need to pray for her to feel guilty about what she is doing & know that it's wrong for her marriage too (she's hiding it from her husband too). God can & will shut this down too.

When he called me, he told me that he wanted me to know that he's going to sell our place & whatever we get out of the place - that's my 1/2. He doesn't care about the house (next statement he will probably talk about finishing the carport) and he doesn't care about his job (can you tell he's miserable from not doing right?!). He says that he's going to move far away - says guess wherever he finds a job. I don't get it - he's done & doesn't care. He says he doesn't love me anymore & it's just sex (right - then why does he call me to check on me?!).

I'm really wondering if Katie has told him that she wants to move back OR if his family is pressuring him to move back that way. We need to pray for God to shut this down. God has a plan for his life & He is fixing to do a work (I believe Scott is really miserable & this is why he is acting awful).

I took his Chevy to work yesterday to put gas in it in town. He wanted me to drive his Dodge today to put diesel in it. He was yelling on the phone with me & cursing. He told me he didn't want me to drive his truck - leave it, he would do it himself! Stay out of his room, stay out of his stuff, out of his truck - I told him, I'm in my room! He was just barking - whatever! He said he didn't want me to do anything for him (yeah, right - I've done something for him EVERYDAY this week & almost everyday last week).

After he does all of this - he calls me back in an hourish (around 7) to wake me up (total change in attitude!). Then he asks me if I'm going to drive his truck to put fuel in it. I said I was but you told me you didn't want me to. He said well it makes alot more since for you to do it since you are going to town anyway. He was doing all this to save me fuel for 2-days since my hours had been cut & my checks have been low (I need to write about my job too).

Well, I just hung up with him again (it's almost 10)... another change of attitude! He's on a roller coaster... but doesn't know what he wants (even tho he says he does). He says he is leaving tonight to go to East Texas to stay at his parent's & then he is leaving tomorrow after Katie gets there to go to Houston to see his sister... please pray that God will shut their mouths against me.

Thursday AM...

We had a really nice evening last night. It has been so peaceful & actually FUN here! He emailed his "friend" & said that this has been the longest 1.5 weeks. I'm thinking ~ it's gone by FAST!

Each night he seems to spend extra time with me. He probably won't have much time for me when his kid gets home but we will see. I will just need to pray about it. Also, we need to continue to pray that God would move her out if she isn't going to shape up! I really feel like she doesn't want to be here anymore.

He was ok this AM & was warm towards me when he told me bye. As he was walking to his truck @ about 6:45 (he left late this AM) his phone started ringing. Now he hasn't replied to any of my texts this AM so I guess he's been on the phone nonstop.

Again ~ my focused prayer this week is for the spirits of pride, division & wandering eye to flee in Jesus Name! Email me back at gettingirl@aol.com

Wednesday Evening...

I woke up at 4 AM this morning & went to get in bed with him. He was very warm & receptive towards me. He wasn't grouchy when I woke him up either. He started receiving text messages at 6 AM.

He called me & chatted with me throughout the day. He got stuck on his first job & they had to get a winch truck to come pull his crane out. He said it wasn't mudd. It was soft sandy loam that just gave away underneath him & his crane sunk.

When he got home, he worked on his brush hog some more & I hung out there with him some off & on. I went to go in the house to finish cooking & took all of his stuff inside. I got ahold of his phone to read his text messages ~ not sure if I said before but he changed "her" name to her middle name on his phone so it would look like a guy's name (like I'm stupid!).

She texted him to ask him if he was awake (might explain why he was in such a good mood this AM). She said she wanted to talk to him before her teenager got up - that he is her guard dog. It said that he reads all her texts & emails & he would not believe they are just friends (thank God - Lord let him find out they are talking!). He said that Katie doesn't read his messages (yeah right!) because then he would read her's & she doesn't like that!

Then... They were talking about US & she asked if we stay together ~ would I still let him see his family. He said that NO one would ever keep him from his family again! Now as I recall, I didn't have anything to do with that ~ it was a combination of their actions AND Katie telling us things that they had said about us (which could very well have been partial lies). Then he goes on to tell her that I'm controlling. I can't control my own life so I try to control everyone else's (doesn't that sound like a teenager talking?!). I'm sorry ~ can you explain to me who gets me up each day, drives me to work & writes my friends each day?! Oh - my friends make me do... that's right I forgot, I'm not in control of my life. He said that I only want him to be with me (umm ~ should he be with or talking to another female?). Don't most wives want their husband to be with them & spend time with ONLY them at times?!

We had a nice dinner & a nice time hanging out while he was outside working on his brush hog & while inside later. Each evening he wants me to hang out with him & when I don't - he sends me a message to come here for some reason or another. I asked him if he would take me for a drive soon on a Saturday to someplace like Lake Sommerville or something. He asked what I wanted to do ~ I told him hang out, look around, etc. Well you know where his mind went!!!

I believe God is working & slowly opening his eyes to things. Please help me to continue to pray for God to remove the scales from his eyes. =)

Tuesday Night...

All & all... today was a good day! We talked & texted off & on again. He was unable to call or text "her" today b/c she is on Spring Break with her kids. He wrote her an email & said how he can't wait for this weekend to go get his kid. I'm thinking - it's been NICE & QUIET without her here! He doesn't notice or he blames me for the crap that goes on when she is here (says I start stuff with her all the time). She hasn't called me or texted me back while she has been gone BUT I'm supposed to be all sweet to her when she comes home?!... errr! I am feeling anxious & believe God is working on Scott & clearing up his mind to receive the truth & open his eyes to his love for me. I think he is obsessed with his kid & needs to chill. I actually think he's pushing her away & she will run from all this b/c she doesn't want responsiblity or to be held accountable by someone. I have been praying that if she isn't going to shape up & live right, that God would ship her out of the way for now. Please help me pray for God's will to be done & thank God for the restoration he is doing in my marriage. My mom sent me Galations 6:9 this evening.

Tuesday AM...

Yesterday was great! After him spending a couple of hours with me Sunday night in "our" room, he texted me & called me off & on all day Monday. We went to look at this job he might do in Cedar Creek. It's alot of work but he can charge enough to cover the work. He went to his room early to work on his checkbook. Then he was texting me & IM-ing me to come down there. I was trying to hang out with him off & on but had things to do myself. He's in a good mood towards me & it's been ok. He & Katie continue to get into each day she has been at her mother's (since Saturday). They are arguing b/c she doesn't have time to talk to him or call him when he thinks she should call him. Not sure if I mentioned but she broke up with her "boyfriend" early last week. I'm not sure how much of a boyfriend he was b/c they didn't do anything together BUT ______. Well, he called her last night & wants to get back together with her. She basically told him no! Now more things are coming out... he's been married twice (not once like I was told) & has an ex-girlfriend that is pregnant ~ go figure huh?!

Please continue to pray this week for the Spirits of pride, division & the wandering eye to flee. He was only able to talk to "HER" for about 7 minutes yesterday & she never texted him back... lol. I hope she is feeling guilty & convicted after Easter Sunday church!!! God has shut this junk down before & He will do it again! Please just continue to help me pray & believe in the miracle. God will answer prayers if we keep our faith. Also, I was talking to him last night about our home loan. He said he hasn't decided what he is going to do & only has 2 months left. I think his confusion is b/c he didn't & still doesn't completely understand that the note is renewed/"rolled" over into another 5 years.

Thanks for your prayers! Email me at gettingirl@aol.com

Sunday AM...

Happy Easter! He is RISEN... after dying on the cross for our sins now He is Risen to care for us & help us thru life. I had a really rough evening last night. He couldn't talk to me face to face but started IM-ing me after he went to his room. He told me that he learned today that I think this is all a joke! I was blown away... does he not see that I am hurting?! The enemy has him so blinded. He even said at one point that I don't love him. He knows that is a lie & I even told him. Alot of what he said were put down to me - I even told him that at one point. He has alot of issues that he needs to work thru... and needs healing from. Friday when I was outside cleaning the trash & stuff out of the yard, etc & mowing a little, I was thinking - God would not have given me the desire to clean up around here if He didn't want me here. I was push mowing part of the backyard & He reminded me ~ He gave us this place & He would not do all of this & bring me this far for it to be given up & thrown away this easily. My mom reminded me last night that He would not have brought me this far to forget me. His ways are the high ways & He has a plan for me. He will make a way where there seems to be no way. I am trying REALLY hard not to receive any of this & know that it's just from the enemy, who is trying to break my faith & get me down. I have been praying almost nonstop to fight this off! Please say a prayer for me to stay strong & me to keep my faith! Also, it's great to hear from you ~ email me at gettingirl@aol.com

Saturday PM...

Well this has been a rough week but a good week. I've prayed for God to restore things - actually I've thanked God for the restoration. I know none of you have the answers but this is really hard for me at times. He continues to speak about divorce & not being there later for me (I don't accept it & just rebuke it in Jesus Name). He mentioned tonight that he doesn't understand why I want my own house b/c I'm just going to wind up taking care of my parents anyway & could just live with them. I wanted to say HELLO!!! ~ I'm only 38 & my life is NOT over!!! He is just speaking junk! & I have to recognize it for what it is ~ enemy flee in the name of Jesus! In the beginning, I had to stand up & say Satan my God & the power of the Holy Ghost are much stronger than this 21 year old you are sending my way. Now I feel like I need to say the same thing about the 19 year old that lives here & the division that keeps trying to creep in! My focused prayer for this next week is for the spirits of pride, division & wandering eye to flee in the Name of Jesus! Thank you for helping me pray... reply to me at gettingirl@aol.com

Special Prayer this Week...

I know the week is almost over but I meant to write this a couple of days ago. Please pray about these things for my family... the Spirits of lust, perversion & division to flee. Also, please pray about our home loan. It renews in May & Scott just isn't sure about signing another 5 year loan with me. It's the best option with the economy the way it is at this time. Thanks for all the prayers! Love to ALL... email me back at gettingirl@aol.com

Wednesday...

I was feeling blah off & on this week and my mom gave me Luke 4:18. I did go to church this evening & it really does help. It seemed like the Pastor preached right to me! When you have problems in your marriage, with your children being rebellious, on your job, etc. - we have got to believe that God is going to handle them b/c the enemy keeps trying to rise up & make things hard for us to trust God. The enemy will put obstacles in our paths daily to try to get us down. We just have to put all our faith in God & BELIEVE! I know that my God is a miracle working God & He is still in the miracle working business... I just have to keep holding my head up & keep on keeping on.

Tuesday PM...

Well so far things have been pretty good the past couple of days. Katie hasn't called me or texted me back when I have sent her a quick hello (you know she is living a double life & probably has to keep up the front that she doesn't like me while she is there - just like he does when he is there). I found out yesterday evening that Scott is talking to an old girl-friend that has had a lot of psycho issues, etc. She's not the most level headed person at all! I'm praying that she either detests Scott OR God uses her to help restore my marriage. She does go to church & pray (may not understand alot of things but she prays). She has also been thru a bad divorce so she can tell him that it's not worth it & he needs to think about working things out. He can do it & he knows he can ~ he just needs to tear down the wall that is blocking things.

My friend sent me this today (thanks Tammy)...
Luke 9:1
Then he called his twelve disciples together, and gave them power and authority over all devils........

Monday Night...

Sorry I haven't written - we've had problems with our internet & staying online. Today was GREAT! I kept trying to wake him up & he finally got up to leave barely in time. I had everything ready to go - but never got his phones (didn't used to be a big secret until all this started - they used to stay in the kitchen charging). Well he grabbed them but put them back down in "his" room. He called me after he got to work & I had to drive up there to take them to him. I hate going into work late b/c I can't stay going in the AM since I know I don't have to be there until later. This evening was cool. I did find out that he talked to this old girlfriend from his teenage years today for almost 2 hours. She's a bit of a psycho & has even been in the mental ward. I also know that she's tried to commit suicide. Anyway she's supposed to be happily married right now. He & Katie can pick some real winners! Katie is gone for 2 weeks - one to Scott's parent's & then the next to her mother's. I was trying to talk to him about our taxes tonight & he said I don't know - I still have to figure out what to do on this house. I thought to myself - OK God, it's time & it's time now! You gave me a promise & I'm standing on it ~ it's time to deliver.

Saturday...

My Mom sent this blurb to me & it's really good!

What moves God to action? Contrary to what many people think, it isn't our prayers. Prayer moves you and prayer moves me, but it is faith that moves God.

Prayer gets us into faith. Once I prayed in the Prayer Tower for seven hours before I felt faith being released out of my heart. Sometimes I can pray for just a few seconds and feel that faith is coming forth. It's not a matter of how long or how short we pray, but that we pray until we experience faith moving in us and out of us toward God.

Prayer aims our faith. Paul taught that in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God (Philippians 4:6). You might say, "Doesn't God already know my needs?" Yes, He does. Matthew 6:8 says that God knows our needs before we even ask Him. If He knows our needs, then why do we need to make our requests known to Him? So we can aim our faith precisely at our needs.

Jesus once asked a blind man, "What do you want Me to do for you?" (Mark 10:51 NKJV). Jesus and everyone else around could see that the man, Bartimaeus, was blind, yet Jesus asked, "What do you want Me to do for you?" He asked the question so Bartimaeus would focus his faith precisely on what he wanted from the Lord. Bartimaeus replied, "[Lord], that I may receive my sight." Then Jesus said to him, "Go your way; your faith has made you well." And immediately he received his sight (vv. 51-52).

What do you desire of the Lord? Pray until you feel faith rising up in you. Pray specifically and aim your faith precisely, because it is your faith that moves God.

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My Declaration of Faith for Today
God can move on my behalf when I aim my faith at my precise needs.

Thursday...

I called him on my way home & we were chatting about this & that. He said he wants out but I won't let him - I just said whatever! Now how am I keeping him in this relationship?! Can you explain that to me?... of coarse I'm not - he doesn't truly want out. My prayer partner & I have prayed & prayed over my marriage & at my house. You can feel the confusion but you can feel that it's truly not over. He's just confused & has let others lead him along & put ideas in his head about what he wants.

Wednesday Evening...

I went to church b/c Scott was coming home late - again! It was a very disturbing service. Our pastor preached about the last days & that this could be one of the last Wednesday night services we could be sitting in. It was disturbing! He said that if some of our family doesn't wake up/get their act together - they will be burning in hell. It's all very true! I live with 2 that are very out there & it was very disturbing for the two of them.

Tuesday AM...

Well it's Tuesday AM & I almost typed Monday since I didn't go to work yesterday. I really needed that extra day ~ even though I was here when they got home. I tell you - he acts like he does SO much for me at times. He just told me this AM that I do nothing around here. I wanted to say HELLO!!! Who do you think has washed your clothes - for years, who do you think has cooked - for years, who do you think walks around & picks up - for years, who do you think wakes you up - for years!!! He says that I have laid around for years & done nothing - that I've just now started doing things around here. Let's see - last year I was sick & didn't have energy to do anything. Other than that - I have mowed the lawn (I did mow the lawn last summer all the time!), worked around the house, always cleaned the kitchen & picked up the house - nonstop. It's all junk! I just have to keep moving forward. He was leaving for work this AM & I told him I love you - he said I already told you that I'm sick of hearing the I love you's. I told him again before he left - he didn't say a word! God is working... keep on keeping on. Well after visiting their family this weekend - Katie is going to visit her mother & Scott's parents for 2-weeks. She is going to stay when they go up there on Saturday. She is also having boyfriend problems & is bound & determined to break up with him soon! She's figured out that it was all about the sex - uh, duh! That's how she lured him to her & that's all they had when they were together. If he really wanted to be with her - he would come see her & take her out on dates. No matter what he says - she's not the brightest star! He can keep on thinking whatever but come on, think about it. She's mad b/c he announced this AM that tonight, there is no boyfriend problems b/c he has things to do. She said just tell the whole world. I was thinking if you know - everybody knows! I just pray that God convicts her & she straightens up or God removes her from our household. At this time, she is a distraction to our marriage. I am now just thanking God for the restoration in my marriage & thanking God for saving my family. We just have to give Him all the glory & praise for what He has & is yet to do!

Monday Evening...

I didn't go to work today b/c I was wiped out & had a sinus headache. I was going to leave before they got back into town so he wouldn't say anything about me being home but I was just walking out the door when they were driving down the road. He started with this or that - but that's ok... it's all junk! God is doing a work before our eyes ~ just have to keep believing & carry on. I tried to take a nap this evening but the dogs kept barking & I kept feeling the spirit of fear. God was calling me to wake & set my mind on Him. I called my prayer partners to give them the praise report about my mom & I was holding my Bible & opened to Matthew 14:27 ~ "But straightway Jesus spake unto them, saying, 'Be of good cheer; it is I; be not afraid'." This is totally from God! He is telling me DO NOT FEAR ~ keep up my faith!

Praise Report...

My mom was able to take a shower without my dad's help today. It's the first time in about 6 weeks ~ Praise God! ~ it's a coming. We have to keep on keeping on & believing.

Ladies Conference...

WOW ~ it was awesome! I have a few things that I have to add to this later when I bring my bag inside. I didn't get a big word but did get alot of peace, not just peace & quiet. God basically told me it's all good & there will be peace. Thursday afternoon's service was just a warm up for the whole conference. The theme was Generation 2 Generation ~ so that the generation to come might know. Right off the bat we were greeted by our District Prayer Coordinator, Flo Shaw (she's awesome). She had prayed & fasted alot for our conference. The Lord awoke her on Thursday AM about 3:00 & gave her a word for us: Blessed is he that hears the word of God & keeps it. It's in my heart, it's in my mind & blessed is her that is not offended. It just exploded from there! I'm so full of joy & really feel like I have the victory & it's coming for my family. Bro. Ewing said if you need a reason to keep on & a confirmation to keep on fighting - you just got it! So I'm going to keep on keeping on & continue to fight.

Saturday...

I got up late this AM. Scott called me about 8:00 to make sure I made it home b/c I never text'd him last night when I got home. He had been such a turd that I decided to let him be. I figured if he didn't want to talk to me - why text him?! Anyway, it worked! After a while he called me back again & said what's up?! It was a good conversation... we just chatted about this & that. I went to my parent's for a while today & helped my mom clean on her room. It was fun! I was glad to do it to help her out. We listened to Bro. Ewing & Sis. Haney's messages from Ladies Conference while we cleaned. I took more pics of the babies & will have to post them too. I chatted with Scott off & on this evening by text messaging. It was all small talk but good. He told me this AM that he didn't want to have small talk with me but that's ok... we still do it anyway. Isn't that what chatting & alot of conversations are anyway?! I went to Walmart to buy groceries on the way home & then came home to get this & that & nothing done... lol. I need to start vacuuming but have lack of energy. I have to use the old vacuum b/c Katie has the new one locked in her room. They both locked their rooms when they left - crazy! I've already chatted with him on IM & he called me tonight as well. It's coming - just have to keep the faith & stay strong!

Thursday AM...

Well he just left a little bit ago. He was kind enough to give me directions to get to Ladies' Conference quicker. I am SO excited & know that God is going to do a great work at this conference. Scott is under a tremendous amount of convition, which would explain why he is so miserable. I know he thinks he can run & run but he can't get away from God. Katie & I have been talking about church more & more. I think she is going to go back soon. I was talking to 2 of my prayer partners yesterday & something I can't get away from is this - if he truly wants to divorce me... he wouldn't want to have sex with me! WOW ~ that was blunt... LOL. If you want to get away from someone, you don't want to do those kind of things with someone - no matter what. He is so mixed up - he doesn't know what he wants! I keep getting told that God is fixing to blast him off so he better have on his seatbelt. I do believe God has great things in store b/c I keep getting told these things. Email me back at gettingirl@aol.com

Monday AM...

Praise God! He's working even tho I can't see it & most of all - I really do feel it tho. It's all junk - them griping & being mad at me about this or that (even tho I didn't do it) & him still speaking negative about our marriage... it's junk! I just have to keep up my faith & keep praying... it's a continual process! I will tell you more later about my weekend... it's great!

Sunday...

Scott & Katie were supposed to get up early to go mow. They got up just before I was leaving for church. He was so so when I left for church. When I got to church a couple of us gathered together to pray. My Mom gave me a word - Habakkuk 2:2-4. You have got to check it out! It is totally me in my situation. Then you need to go to www.Bible.com to look up the passage & read it in another translation (NIV or Living Bible). A few of us pray before service & touched the throne of grace! Our morning service was awesome. I was prayed for before service & God began to do a work at that time. One of my prayer partners, who plays the keyboard, came off the platform & gave me a word from God. Basically God has called me from the womb to be a witness. He is going to use Scott in great ways! She reinterated - "wide is the gate" which I will travel (same thing my Dad gave me a while back). I have got to continue to keep doing what I am doing for Him & He will pour out His blessings to me.

Sunday AM...

I'm excited! It's Sunday & I get to go to church & be blessed (not that I'm not blessed everyday by God already). I'm going early to pray with my prayer partners. I'm excited about what God is doing! This AM I went to wake them up for about the 3rd time - she was in bed w/him but I think she just went in there early this AM to wake him up. I was saying come on, you have to get up, don't forget it's going to rain later this afternoon... she said shut-up. He told her - hey, that's not nice... hehehe. It's been great! Yesterday he was working on his checkbook & complaining about money. He's in the hole b/c he's borrowed off his company credit card & needs to put money back in his savings (sounds to me like they are spending way too much here & there). It's ok - it's all junk & God's working. I have a couple of prayer requests besides my marriage... please continue to pray for my Mom & Dad that God will heal them & strengthen them, my friend Tammy & her daughter are both real sick and a young man by the name of Jordan. Jordan is 17 years old & has run away from home. His family is very worried about him. Let's just continue to touch the throne of Grace & ask God to do His work. My God is a miracle working God & I still believe that He is in the miracle working business!

Saturday Night...

I'm trying to continue to be in a Thankful mood & keep praising God. I'm been so bogged down today that I know I haven't done what I'm supposed to do. I need to spend a few minutes praying before I go to sleep but also need to go to sleep soon so I can get up early & get ready to go to church. Scott seemed semi-happy to see me last night. He spent a little while with me (he says it's just sex - whatever!). I'm just continuing to trust in God. He is an awesome God. Even tho they treated me like a 2nd person bothering them 1/2 the time today - I'm just believing God is fixing to do a work. Everyone keeps telling me God is working & He's fixing to do some things. I have to get ready for bed to get up in AM to go to church. I'm excitd & know I have to get up early so I better get in bed... write me back at Email me at gettingirl@aol.com

The Picture...

Several of you have asked me what Katie looks like in her jeans so I snapped a quick photo for you to see (it's not the greatest!). She kept saying that she needed to get more jeans b/c the pairs she has don't stay up without a belt (funny she didn't have one on with them in the picture). Hope she got a bigger size! I think it's going to be awful if she got a smaller size.